I saw this here....

I saw this in a magazine. As a loner, I am slightly offended. Although I suppose people do continue to disappoint me....mostly with their noise when I would rather have silence. And their presence when I would rather be alone.

I love the quiet. It is so very soothing. If I could meet a large group of 'loners' we would probably get on like a house on fire. And then go back to our own solitary pursuits humming happily.

I really don't understand extroverts at all. Isn't it draining to be around so many people all the time? Certainly is to me. After a party I don't want an after-party, I want a nap. And a book. And maybe to sit with my feet in the cool grass.

So dear Jodi Picoult, the only thing that disappoints me about people, is really, the presence of the people. I'm busy enough in my head, I don't need you.

Why A Ukulele

Dear Amanda,

I cannot play the ukulele. I'm sure that I could learn if I tried, but I have no musical creativity. I learned enough bass guitar to know that. I enjoy playing, but I have no passion or inspiration to bring to it. I let it go. I know I have limits.

I know I should broaden my horizons, and the universe is limitless, and yet; playing music never once filled me with glee. I like to sing but lack training. I possess the keen knowledge that what I really have is an appalling lack of rhythm.

I am okay with that. I am content that others make the music. I can feel music lift me, soothe me, make me flame and make me weep. Some of those songs are yours.

I find my passion in many other things. Mostly food, some geekery; lots of crafting. I'll post that here. Not only the successes. That wouldn't be the truth. And shouldn't your song be about truth? About all of you, not only the socially acceptable bits?

Your ukulele song inspired me and broke my heart and made me cry and gave me hope. So I wanted to give you something back. Amanda, friend I'll never meet, this whole thing, this is my song for you.

1st movement

how long could this symphony be?

i could just keep writing nonsense forever.

but i surely won't.

because i really have nothing to write yet. and this is definitely not a diary.